walking counterclockwise

I starting to believe that I can go on but I still I think I should move out of myself for a while, to clean my mind from all of this.
I'm almost sure this is not going how it is suppossed to be but all in all maybe I'll never know and maybe this will never end. or maybe it has ended a long time ago and I'm way to stupid to figure it out.
if you're going to say how much you hate me, say it out loud, cream it at my face instead of playing your sick little games over and over.
Make this be the last, make it sure and decisive. Put an end to something that has never begun.